4/12/10

yeah so me and 2468 diet doesnt work very well together i cant follow diets at all id rather have my own rules and plans and have complete contorl of everything so wjhen i get some time ima write my own rules and exercise plans and just everything

and also acid refluz and diet coke dont mix very well at all i drank 2cans today and it just made me so so sick and it made my acid refluz 100 times worse then it already was. so ima do some reserch and write down all the acidic foods and drinks and avoid them like a plaque

food:
*pear
*asain style sitr fry microwavable veggies
* 5 pickles
* 2 cups celery
* lil cake icing
*honey wheat pretzels

exercise:
*65 ming walking on tready random workout level 10 speed between 3.0-3.2- 274
*4.928 miles walked(over 11,000 steps-281

4/11/10

so tomm i decided that ima start the 2468 diet my one ana buddy convinced me to do it thanx meghan ur the best and then i got my other buddy meg to do it as well

im sitting here trying to plan out the 200 cals its so hard i know i can do it im going thruthe food that we have around the house and its just hard cause everything is so high cal but i will so figure it out

today i walked 6.6 miles i really wanted to go to the mall so i decided that walking thre would b better then driving there so 2.7 miles there then 2.7 back and then also walking around the mall. i got a dragonfly necklace from h&m and 4 tshirt from this new store that opended there called strawberry all size small. ive fallen in love with that store all ready its just so different and amazing

so i gotta go do more crunches and try and figure out my plan for tomm and also hope tha tmy heart doesnt go all nuts on me again tonite

love u all

4/8/10

so i spent all day being bugged by my mim she drove me fuckng nuts u have no fucking idea god she just wouldnt shut up dani eat this dani eat that dani u need sugar dani have a candy bar dani u need meat

news flash mother fuck off leave me alone its like fuck already u normally dont give a shit about me fuck i coudlnt compeltey stop eating and u wouldnt notice(yes that has happend 7 days no food and she didnt even notice) god she needs to fuck off idk y she is caring all of a sudden im not use to it ugh fucking hell

so i checke dmy blood sugar this morning(its what caused the hole dani this and that rant thing ihad to deal with formmy mother) u all know that i havent been feleing well and my bor has diabetis so the stuff is all here so i checked it and my sugar was 84 which is low it could explain the holw almost passing out a million times yesterday

i still feel blah but moatly tired and my stomach hurts but o well im hanging in there my heart has freaked out a lil today drives menuts but i gotta deal with it cause im not going to the docs to b judged my then idk if im having organ failure or what ever the fuck is wrong with me im not going i can keep myself alive

food log:
* 2 teddy grahams
* 2 jelly beans
* 5 chunks of peaches
* few lil pieces of cheese
* 2 crakcers
* green beans
* ice cream(shared with my lil cousin)

yeah so i babysitted today soi m sure i burned off most of that if not all of it cause me and the 3 yr olf just ran around play ing tag and trying to cathcing butterflies then playing hide and seek wiht bean bags yeah we make up our own games then taking care of a 5 month old enough said

4/7/10

so im just getting worse sick wise my heart and chest are getting funny feelings all thet ime my sotmach pains are coming back ugh this just sucks ass ugh

i almost passed out twice 2day once while i was dying my hair and once at work. i got really really hot all of a sudden and i started shaking and my heart went all weird and i got chest pains idk how i managed to not pass out but i did it yay me but it wasnt fun at all

i forced myself to go for a walk today i swear i almost feel 10 times cause i got dizzy and then i coudlnt concentrate so i almost walked in to things as well ima mess i swear but i got my walk in i even got to swing on the swings for a lil love the swings

food:
*strawberry yogurt-60
*mixed veggies- 240
*jelly beans-?
*2 cups green tea with promgrante-0
*1 cup green tea with blueberry-0
* 2 bottles ofwater-0

exercise
*8.418 miles walked(over 18,000 steps)-539 cals burned

4/6/10

ok so today i was nasuous the hole time i just wanted to stick my finger down my throat and throw up just to get the feeling to go away but i didnt casue then i would relapse with my mia an di dont want that so i dealt with the nausousa(sp) the best that i could

then i had stomach pains yup again all day and it wasnt constant it was like shaprt pains every so often it would b in the middle one time they the left side next to my rubs then my right side by my hip godi m a mess

and i got dizzy earlier as well and got really hot then really cold ugh

food log:

*apple
*blueberry yogurt
*cup of cantalope
*raspberry yogurt
*1/4 cup granonla
*vegan chicken patty
*cup fo green beans
*tortiallo
*jelly beans


had like 3 cups of tea so far today and one bottle of water

im so tired and exhausted all i wanna do it lay down but i gotta make my stomach hurt mmore by diong curnches casue im a fat fuck and my stomach is huge ugfh

4/5/10

height weight and measurments
i guess i should post those again since its been awhle and i have gained some

heaight- 5'5

weight-109 lbs

measurements

waist- 24.5 in
hips- 30 in
ankle- 7 in
calf 11.5 in
thigh- 16.5 in
wrist- 5.5 in
upper arm- 9-5 in
neck-12 in


so far today i have eaten tangerine with strawberry yogurt and granola and then ihad some choc covered peanuts and i know i should of had them
as soon as i finish my tea im go to the gym and try to work some of i t off even though i still feel really sick ugh

4/3/10

so yesterday i did good eating wise i had peach yogurt some granola and a banana for breakfast then i skipped lunch went to a hockey game with the boyfriend and hes 2 freinds he made me sahre some fries with him then have a snack i had a choc dipped ice cream and thats all i ate yesterday

im still feeling really sick and weak and its hard to move most of the time but i have to pforce myself to the hcest pains hurt but are that freguent so i can deal and i still get bad stomach pains but its not constant soi guess thats that

me and the boyfriend had a nice talk last nite about my ed he says as long as i eating he will pretty much leave me alone that ih ave to eat everyday and it cant just b fruit whish is fine i have this low cal pizza recipe thati got from dollparts and i make them sometimes and i have vegan burgers and chicken patties. is aid that i did wanna eat as many cals as ihave been he said to eat what i feel comfortable with but i have to b eating he wants me to try and eat on a scheudle i told him i would try but at least he will b off my back for a lil its just on fridays i still have to eat with him and an said i can eat what ever i want when im with him so ima try and not let my ana completley take over on fridays when i an with him
i did tell him i was sorry that he had to deal with all my issues he said it was ok that we woiuld get thru it together

at least now i can lose some weight thank god ive been at 109lbs for way to long i need to get it off