12/2/10

so id ont really know what im doing nemore my head is just all over the place idk if i wanna b healthy or if i wanna b sick or ssemi sick or really sick ij ust dont know whats going on my head wont shut up
so righ tnow im just going with the flow i guess. if i dont feel like eatin for a day or a few days i wont if i wanna restrict then i will if i wanna eat nomral for some reason then i will i guess thats just the only way i can do things right now til i can get my head sorted out which i prob will never get it completely sorted out cause im just a crazy crazy mess but u guys love me neway so i guess thats ok

i took laxs twice this week yup twice i havent doen the twice a week thing in over a year well i guess tahts going down hill i wanna do it again today but im not going to cause i can feel myself getting dehryadted between the laxing and the diuretics ad i dont wanna dehryadte myself even more so im not gonna laxs tonite ima ddrink lots of water and take more diurtetics and hopfully i dont feel like a fat ass tomm ugh.

ima go tot he gym tomm morning prob gonna do 65 mins on elly lik ei always do i need to get a wokrout in. i did crucnhes last nite and ran in place alil so i got alil workout in yesterday and babysat today so that burns cals as well.

i currently got hair dye in my hair im dying it all black right now and then tomm after the gym ima put red streaks in it i will post a lil of it tomm if it comes out good for u guys can c it.

like i said i babysat today from 10am-430pm it was fun and tiring and just yeah. i spent most of the day taking care of my lil cuddle bug we layed on the couch alot and just cuddles i did also play with the other ones as well. but mostly took care of the 3 month old. its hard to rememver everything we did but im tired so that means osmething.

ugh food wise it could of been better but it also coudl of been worse breafkast i had cup of southwestern corn soup(140) and cup of tea. while i wa babysitiing i just pretty much munched on stuff so i had few bites of bread, some nerds, couple chips and cookies. after they left had like 4 lil spoons of ice cream and 2 more cookies. later im thinking of making myself a nice big chicken walnut salad.

hopeuflly i wont binge later like i did yesterday yesterday was just one big binge fest.

k i really gotta go and rinse out th edye i was suppose to rinse it out like 10 minutes ago lol

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docle-hey hun thanx i knwo u will always b here for me an di will b for u o yeah hey speaking of that i keep going to ur blog to read ur post and it wont let me i click on the button like im suppsoe to and it tells me i cant right click but im not right clicking im left clicking so idk if its the layout or just my screw up computer i feel bad cause i really wanna read ur posts

beautifulbones-thanx hun

mich-aw thanx hun an di love u all as well
um th esweater i got it a few years ago at kohls

12/1/10

outfit that i wore for my job interview today



i had an interview for a part time teachers aide postion today it was 830am and it was pouring but surprisngly it was 60 degress but the temp kept droppign and dropping thru out the day and now the high for tomm is only 40 hey no wonder im always sick every winter.

so yeah interview sorry but it went good it lasted 5 mins mayb 10 tops but they had 2 positions open teachers aide for classromm and teachers aide for special ed asked what one i would prefer i went for the the classroom one. they just asked like maybe 5 questions i answered them the best i could. it helped that ihave worked with kids int he past. i told them that i babysit and at my old job i lifeguarded and taught swim lessons that im also certified in cpr, first aide, and aed but i prob would have to renew them they said they offer that thru the school most likely. they asked if i was interested in subsitute teaching i said i was going to look into i just havent yet she said it would b a good thing to ahve that and then u candc if u really like teaching and wanna make a career change.

like oneo f the questions was just like developmental like how to handle it i didnt really know what thye meant so ijust said that i would b pateint and pay close attentino to the kid and c exactly what they need or struggling with they seemed pleased with that answer.
the one interview was like assistant principal when was in high school me and her didnt get along but idk if she really remembered me or not but she did say it was nice to c me doing so well with my life that if i getmy bacholars degree that she knew a good school that was good for economics and business and she gave me the name of the school. i had to ask abou tmy earrings they didnt seem to have a problem with it they said if it was like facial piercings then mayb but there wasnt really a rule for it but they seemed fine it to like intpretate professinal as i c fit.

my old boss use to b the ones interviews old neighbor so idk how that is gonna go sicne things ended weird there but its a part time postion 3 and half hours m-f and its mornings they asked what i was doing now and i told them about me current job and that if i do get this job then all i would have to do was change my availability there they asked if i was planning on working both jobs i was honest and said yes

they seemsed pleased and said i did good and they were very nice that they would let me know in the middle of decemeber..
i acutally saw soem1 i went to high school with and worked at my old job with for awhile as i wias leaving she was interviewing as well and i talked to her for a lil b4 she got called back shes nice me and her always got along so now its just a wait and c game.

i still havent heard nething from old navy they havent called or emailed me my scheudle for next week yet so idk whats going on there they seem pleased with the work i do ima very hard worker so guess i gotta wait for that as well if i dont hear from them by saturday i will give them a call
when i gotm y scheudle for this week it said i was off all week i asked 2 ppl about it and they said they would take a look and call me so its just a waitng game.

i had my one lil cousin today my munchin shes 4 years old as she put it it was jsut us girls today her me and my mom it hasnt been just us since her borthers were born we ahve been watching her since she was 2 months old so i love her so much. she started preschool this year and its only 3 times a week til lunch time so her mom dropped her off with us int he afternoon and went back tow rk her borthers were at their nanas house.

but she bought over lunchable and chips and of course she has to share its usaully th eonly way she will eat if i share with her or if i make it so we had to sahre that and cookies and ice cream yeah my tummy hurts. but neway we ahd fun playing ahd her for about 3 and half hours

we played tag, hide and seek, school, watched tv, had a tickle fight and also had a jump and kick on dani fight were i just kept tickling her. i will bprob have bruises but we had lots and lots of fun.

we ahve all 3 of them tomm from 10am-330pm mayb longer we will c but yay all 3 i can paly with my munchin, chase after wibble wobbble and cuddle with my cuddle bug it will b a tirng day but a good tiring day.

now i said that iw as gonna dot his healthy yestterday but i had a very bad freakout today really bad and realized that i just cant do it not yet at least. i have tired to recover mutiple times thru out the years and it never works i think im just different becausei didnt develop this ive been this way since i have been born, i was born so early and so little and ihave somany food issues. ihave hated the way i looked since i was litlle. i have really werid food habits i have never been like the rest of my family i have always been different i ahve never eaten nomral the boy pointed that out even when id o manage to semi recover im still not nomral and i prob never will b so whats the point of point of trying to recover if i know that its not gonna happen at least not right now.

the way i work is i have to hit rock bottom i need help i know i need help but i cant gethelp til im sick enough and iwill never ask for help i will never walk into doctors or hopstial and say i have an eating disorder can u help me. the only way i will gethelp is to hit rock bottom and that means ihave to get sick ih ave to lsoe weight i have to get so sick that they wheel me into the hsopital thats just how i am

please dont hate me for that guys i know u guys were proud and happy that i was gonna try and b healthier but i just cant do it tno yet the freako ut was bad today for me.
i will try again eventually i promise its jsut right now the urge to lsoe weight is somuch stornger then the urge to lsoe weight.

today was bad food wise cookie binge enough said and u knwo me and dairy so i dont feel very well. i took 6 laxs after munchin got picked up so they should b working later.
i did abunch of crunches and i will do more as well.
tomm ima get back to restricting ihave aplan set in my head but its just tentative sincei m babysitting again tomm.

igot tired of having allm y books away in my drawers so i took them all out and now they are scattered in piles around my room of course they are orgainxzed its just organized chaos ha im good that them. i for 4 stacks under my tv on a shelf. for like 5 stacks oln my one shelf and 4 on my dresser and they are high stacks i have alot of books i lov emy books. so in order to have them out i put my movies int the drawers and put some other random stuff in there as well so my room is its noraml organized chaos

now can ijust comment ont herain today fuck that was crazy and if ur in jersey or u know the northeast in general u know what im talkinga bout im glad its done now though but still its gonna b cold as fuck tomm i cant imagine ifit would of been snow that would of beencrazy.

well off to do more crunches and wathc the flyers game love u all thanx for putting up with my crazy self and my crazy rambling and my crazy mind.

11/30/10

ok so im being crazy again and ima attempt to b healthier to not put my body thru this hell nemore my heart has been really bothering me lately and ive been binging alot and eatin not much during the day and then eating way to much at nite like late nite.

so in an attempt to try and b healthy and not have my heart fail me ima try this again.
ima be healthy ima lose weight healthy which is gonna b hard for me cause idk how to b healthy or nomral i either ate way to little or way to much there is no middle ground for me no nomral its either restircitng or binging so i have aplan.

ima do 1200 cals a day i know the number is so scary and so high but its a healthy normal but also not a normal person amount of cals.l i can still lose weight on that it just wont b dramatic and i can get healthy i can stop having my heart going all crazy i can stop being dizzy and sick i can stop almost passing out at work.

so 1200 cals a day or close ima try and no binging or really late nite eating. im still gonna take my green tea pills and my diruetics. ima try and avoid hard cored diet pills though and try to avoid laxs. going to keep taking my vitamins an dmy fish oil pills. and def need my exercise. i cant functin with out my exercise so im still going to exericse.

im going to try and follow my low sodium low cholestrol diet the doc put me own years ago and then yells at me when i dont follow it so i gotta find the sheet for that. i watch the sodium amount in the stuff i eat enway and if its over 500 mg of sodium i dont eat it unless im binging then all reasoning goes out the window.

so yeah and no junk im cut out chips and dairy well the dairy is cause it just makes me sick but i eat it cause i crave it and i crave it cause im allergic yes i realize that its werid but the more allergic u are to soemthing the more u crave it trust me i read up on it.

so its pretty much healthy eating and ima drink water, tea and juice no soda or alochol which i dont drink much of neway soda just hurts my stomach and me and alcohol have issues.
ima have oatmeal in the morning for breakfast if i eat that in the morning thenmy heart is usually ok well it doesnt bug me as much as it would when i dont eat it.

ihope that all makes sense my thoughts are all over the place right now.
i went tot he gorcery store today i got:
*walnuts
*pre cookes chicken strips
*bananas
*3 mangos
*6 apples
*jello cups
*rice
*frozen veggies
*2 cans reduced sodium chicken noodle soups
*2 boxs v8 soup

also went to target as well:
*24 case of water
*3 sobe life water0
*2 boxes tea
*hair dye(really need to dye it again eventually)
*pack of razors(the shaving kind not SH kind)
*coldmedicine(its winter im always sick all winter)
*harry potter books 1 and 2(yes im giving in and am finally gonna read them evneutally)

i dont understand y the day i decide to do all my running around it rains it wasnt suppsoe to rain til later today but yeah it started raining at 10am and hasnt stopped since and its suppose to rain all day tomm and harder as well

i did go tot he gym b4 i did my store hopping i did 65 mins on elly and burnt 486 cals my chest hurt so bad after cause i went full force the last 7 mins of my workout i was covered in sweat after i love a hard workout but the hway my heart was beating so fast was just crazy.

watched beauty and teh beast last nite he love that movie
got a job interview tomm bright and early 830am its for a part time teachers aide postion if i cant find a full time job ima need 2 part time jobs i dont really wanna work 2 but u do what u have to do.
i will let u know how it goes tomm
i still gotta figure out what ima wear but i will do that in the morning

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dolce0thanx hun and im glad im not the only one with crazy under eye circles i hate mine though

mich-yes its a book and u shoudl read it trust me on it it explains alot more. im sorry that u dont ahve a good gym around u i acutally go out of state to my gym good think about living right on the boreder

honey-yeah i knwo what u mean but sometimes it doesnt make me vomit it just makes me really uncomfortalbe it depends on the situation i guess

11/29/10

so i woke up this morning feel extremely exhausted even more exhausted on the days that i dont get ne sleep at all. and i acutally sleep last nite i was laying down around 2am watching the food network and nest thing i now im jumping awake at 8am idk if i passed out caus ei never lseep like that an di wasnt rested at all not one bit

i walked downstairs and mom takes one look at me and says u look pissed im like im not pissed mom shes like u look mad no tired u just dont look good u didnt sleep much again did u im like mom when do i ever acutally sleep shes like yeah true

she my mom has sleeping issues as well they arent nearly as bad as mine she just takes naps during the day and then she wonders y she only sleeps a few hours at nite well mom hmmm i wonder mayb if u didnt sleep during the day u would sleep at nite hmm yeah think about i

my eyes look even wrose then yesterday if more puffy and red and i swear the bags under them are getting bigger and bigger im never going to look rested cause really i never am acutally rested.

went tot he gym again today :) she my gym is an old movie theater each of the cardio machines hace a tv on it and they kept one of the movie rooms and have machines in there as well with a big screem everyday they have a different movie playing in the room and one a certain channel of the tv's. the same movie just plays on repeat the hole day. if its a movie i like i will work out til i get to c the hole thing. today the movie was twilight as u all know i am a big twilight saga junky so u know that i just had to watch it and all of it no matter what. i did start to feel bad from working out for so long my legs started to hurt really bad and i was starting to get alil dizzy cuase my heart was just working way to hard but i did it i watched the hole movie and owrked out. i spent my time on the elly :) did 2 seperate workouts on it cause i had to in order to watch the hole thing so i did:
*65 mins on elly level 5- 460 cals burned
*45 min on elly level 5- 317 cals burned

which is a total of 777 cals burned ha for some reason ijust love that number mayb itsjust cuase its the same number repeated idk but i like it.

i messed up today and ate to much yup u ready here it is
*low sugar maple and brown sugar oatmeal
*kaiser roll with butter
*salad(lettuce mix, 1 kosher pickle, 4 cherry tomatos, 2 and half breaded chicken stips, italian dressing)
*2 huge chunk of brownies with ice cream and strawberry syrup on top
*apple

the chicken strips were frozen so ijust cooked them in the microwave fuck me for eating so much i gotta stop that and i gotta stop witht he dairy its fucking killing me the stomach pain the nasousa the acid reflux im allergic to dairy i shouldnt b eating it but i crave it so much causeim allergic to it and i avoid it some days i can avoid it so eaisly and the some days its jsut all i crave and all i want ugh

i gotta find some dairy free recipes some tastey ones i love my fruit and veggies but sometime i just want something different so if neone has some good recipes that dont involve dairy send them my way o and i dont eat red meat only meat i eat is chicken. and it has to b low sodium i cant have alot of sodium(blood pressure) and can have white bread(hurts to much) or butter(that fucking kills). so if ne1 has ne recipes that u know match that strict diet plan thing send them my way u can leave them in a comment or u can email me at danirkt@hotmail.com(that is also my msn so u can talk to me as well)

work hast called me yet c the schedule gets emailed to u and my email said that iw as off all this week and i asked them about it they said they would look into it and call me so im waiting for their call. so since they havent called yet the plan is to go to the gym in the morning somtime for an hour at least if there is a good movie on then longer for i can wathc it and then go to grocery store i wanna get myself some safe food. mom got me more lettuce and cherry tomatos today so i dont need that but im planning on getting:
*more canned soup(not in the mood to cook my homemade soup so going to buy canned low sodium ones)
*precooked chicken strips(for my salads ive been wanting chicken salads for awhile now so)
*walnuts(pre sliced candied or normal depends on cals)
*bunch of frozen veggies
*fruit(not sure what kind yet
*yogurt(gonna look for non dairy kind)
*juice

an dmayb a few other things i will look around and c what catches my eye i usually just get a basket but mayb i will get a cart depending on how tired i am ifim to tired i def wont b able to carry around a heavy basket.

i also took laxs today my stomach just felt of bloated and gross so i took them. i got the generic maximum strength walmart kind. it said take 2 pills so naturally i took 6 lol. theya re working already and it hasnt even been 6 hours yet normally laxs take abuot 10 hours to work for me but this time it started working at 5 and hlaf hours. the cramps are lessenign now though soi had one nice good big movment and then one other lil one so we will see how the nite goes.

i skipped dinner so i will prob have a snack b4 bed if i really need soemthing its usually jsut some bread or some chips i hate eating late but i seem to b doing it alot lately i gotta stop that.

i wanna b 95 lbs by xmas and if ima meet that goal i have to start getting really strict with myself and get this weight off of me already ugh im so fat and gross

hope everyone is having a good day i love u all

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sarah-yeah u are right there but its impossible to please them im sure they would b more excepting if we went to church but my dad ddint raise us that way and i think they resent us for that cause they are very religious

desesperee de maigrer- omg yes please can i please have some recipies i will love u forever,. i get alot of stoamch achesno matter what my stomach is all fucked up

beautifulbones-thanx hun we can both do it

mich-yeah i dont get it either trust me i dont

11/28/10

so i acutally got osme sleep last nite it seems like every saturday i just crash its likemy body just cant handle it nemore and i sleep whihci guess is good but it doesnt help much my eys are still puffy and red i still got huge bags undermy eyes they are just permanet sincei never sleep enough and my eyes are still tired and they hurt

but i got some sleep last nite now back to barely not sleeping what a fun life i live fuck i hate insomnia its a bitch an evil bitch but of course it wont let me go so i will just deal with it ive dealt with it for so many years now whats a few more

even when i do sleep i never sleep thrut the nite and i mean never i always wake up mutliple times a nite but insteaad of waking up ever 30mins to an hour i sleep for 2-3 hours then wake up its just an endless cycle i envy the ppl who acutally sleep they ahve no idea how hard it is to b tired all the time to just push urself to make it thru the day cause ur body is just so tired and all it wants to do is sleep but it cant its not a simple thing ppl are like just lay down close ur eyes and sleep but i cant do that ive enver been able to do that its just not how im wired my breain is always thinking constanly going i cant just sleep never been able to just sleep ugh

but neway had to go visit my aunt and nano today i only go visit them when my sis ishome from school cause we go together its better to go in groups if u go by urself they really double team u but if its a group its not as horrible well its still horrible just not as bad

we visited for an hour and in that hour it was just horrid its like we are never good enough for them cause we dont go to church we dont eat when we go there like they always say u girls should know better dont eat b4 u come for we can feed u but we always eat b4 we go cause we dont want to b feed well me in praticalur at least and its like every time we go gotta remind them that i cant have nething acidic or dairy an di dont eat meat well just chicken. always get picked on everytime thats y i never go up but i got my visit out of the way today so im good for a few months i hope well a month at least sinceim sure we will have to c them on christmas ugh thats gonna b fun.

i ate way to many donut holes today i shoudlnt of eaten them at all they have dairy in them and its killing me they didnt make me throw up just bad stomach ache and very nasouses and my acid reflux has been thru the roof horrid all day today i hate it i just want it to stop already im tired of it the constant uncomfrable feeling in my throat and chest and then the wet burbs and just ugh i hope none of u ever get acid reflux and if u have it my heart goes out to u cause im suffering right there with u

i went tot he gym today the first time since the 16th yes its been that long i was just so busy with work and tired from not sleeping that ijust didnt make it there i wanted to i wasjust to exhausted but i went today and i did 65 min on elly i was so tired while doing it but i made it thru the workout ended up burning 475 cals so thats good

i have to go grocery shopping this week im outof my salad stuff and almost out of my fruit so iw ill def have to make a trip to the grocery store some time ugh ihate the grocery store.

well im off to read and do crunches i feel so fat and gross adn ive been slackingo n my cruncnhes
i will update my book page though i have too

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acka11-thanx hun and he really is an di def will watch thema ll love it

beskinny-omg u have no idea how crazy it was it was like ppl everywhere everytime u turned around someone was there and asking ur questions and making a mess of the clothes that u just folded and organized ugh ppl

bellaana-i am exhausted im always exhausted but im ok i promise hun im fine and i will b fine yes my check willl b good i cant wait to get it idk when exactly i get paid though new job and all but its direct depoisted so i will have to wait and c love u crazy

11/27/10

wow so working on black friday was crazy and so tiring i could barely keep my eyes oepn to drive after that day was over i never worked in a store that was busy on balck friday b4 u know tanning salons and chocoloate stores dont offer crazy black friday deals.

i didnt update yesterday cause i worked 10-7 then came home showered and changed and went out with the boy there was no time to update at all. i burnt 530 cals yesterday just walking around accorindg to my pedometer watch i prob would of burned more but i acutally sat down on my breaks had 2 15 min one and one hour long one. i brought in a salad with me for my hour long break they got everyone pizza and chips but i cant eat that stuff. but it was crazy i would fold osmething and walk away and come bacdk to the section like 30 minutes later and it would b a mess again i was getting really tired of folding.

but me and the boy went to red robin after omg my head was poudning so much by the time we got there that i acutally ate more then nomral and he was surprised im lik ei do eat and its helping my head like he knows i eat i just never eat much but i acutally ate yesterday had 5 onion rings for appy and then my meal wa smy ever popular apple harvest salad no cheese dressingo n the side this time it acutally came with lil slice of bread soemtimes i get it sometimes i dont this time i did so i ate the bread all the apples out of the salad, the walnuts mosto fo the chicken and some of the lettuce. it was more then i normally eat.

he gave me my early xmas present. he got me 2 collectors edition of xmas movies one has 10 moives on it and the other has 7 and they are all the classic old cartoon ones that i love an dhe knows i love them so he got me them and gave them to me early for i coudl watch them b4 xmas god i love him.

my inosmnia is really kicking my ass lately im barely sleeping an di mean barely i take like 30 min cat naps and thats it and its really wearing me out like today i thought i was acutally going to just fall over i could barely keep moving but i managed to stay upright and not fall over no matter how much i watned too

i worked 8 hours today and i didnt take my 15 min breaks i just took my hour long food break. me and my one coworker had break at the same time so she asked if i wanted to go eat with her so i said yes and yes it was werid and iwas freaking out but she was really nice and she talked alot. we went down to this one pizza place at the amll and i got a small garden salad with grilled chicken and a large lemoande she got a wrap that came with chips and apickle. i ate about half of my salad and i drank all of my drink i was just so damn thirsty and then this one pretzel place was given out free small coffee so we got a small coffee the combo of food and coffee hurt my stomach but i managed to make it thru the rest of my shift at work. idk when i work again cause they messed up my schedule but the one manager said he would call me when he figures it out and said that i did good today. i like it there its juts tiring and i dont wanna work in retail the rest of my life. accordint to my pedometer watch i burned 718 cals today.

b4 work i went to walmart and target i had a lil extra money so i decided to get myself a few tings u know as a lil treat. so at walmart i got oth season 6, beauty and the beast on dvd and box of sweet tarts. at target got 2 mags, a calander, and 2 books. the only thing i sitll need to get myself is a jacket which i will do eventually.

food wise today ithink i did pretty well at slice of apple pie and 1 waffle for breaky then snack was 3 rice cakes and a pretzel b4 work and then dinner was the salad and lemonade and now im snacking on some sweet tarts which are really sweet and i prob wont eat nemore.

imight have a lil snack later idk what it will b though.

ima try and get updated on all ur journals but im so tired and my eyes hurt that ijust wanna lay down and hopefully b able to sleep a lil so dont b mad if i cant get updated
i love u all and stay strong

11/25/10

hey everyone yes 2 post in one day im juts really bored hanging in my room we didnt go newhere for thankgiving my mom just cooked an di just ate alil of waht she made and its not agreeing with my acid reflux or my dairy allergy i though i checked all the packages but i guess imissed soemthing

it keeps trying to come back up and i keep swallowing it back down i dont wanna throw up i havent thrown up in what over a month now an di djust dont wanna not intentionally or unintentionally today is one of those days where my body just doenst want it so it would b an unintentional throw up but i dont wanna so its gonna stay down.

my mom didnt even get me a fork out she got everyones forks and plates out and not me shes like well u never eat with us so i forgot to get u one well thanx mom u came up and told me to make my potato cause the food was done but ud ont get me a fork ok whatever.

my family ate so much my dad was gong on hes second plate when i was still in the kitched trying to make my first my sis had like biscuits on her plate plush a shitload of other stuff an dmy moms and bro plate was full and they were talking about coming back for 2nds and shit idk how my family eats so much but yeah i shoudl b use to that they all do eat alot.

i had one lil plate of food and that was it mo has apple pie and pumpkin pie as well so i will have alil piece of apple pie it doesnt have dairy i checked and u know i cant resist me some apples lol :)

well it was snowing here earlier yup snow in jersey lol it was suppose to rain today but the temp dropped alil lower and it snowed it didnt stick ont eh road casue that was till to warm but it stuck to everything else it stopped snowing awihle ago though so its not bad at all out there its just fuckign cold as hell but thats winter for ya.

we won the big rivalry game ya go us it went into overtime first overtime ever in teh 104 years of playing but we won 3-0 yes it was low scoring we kicked a field goal in overtime and won it yay :)

but neway heres the outift that i have on today it was taken in my room in my full length mirror which is dirty sorry for that



and then my plate of food for tday dinner. it was lil piece of turkey with lil gravy cause the turkey was dry, lil soon of stuffing, lil spoon of corn, lil spoon mixed veggies, with small baked potato peeled and cut up and then one lil roll. there wa sno slat on ne of it cause i cant eat salt i just put a lil garlic powder on it instead




well ima go back to watching law and order marathon and i gotta do my crunches yet i think i might start readin unbearable lightness