I need help so much my highs and lows are so bad that I can barely hang on anymore. I would give anything to cut to have the feeling the razor running across my skin the blood seeping out the numbness that comes. I want that but I have promises but fuck do I want to fucking break that promise so bad.
I haven't gotten out of bed all day that's how bad I'm getting I go to work when I have to and come back home to my bed. I hate that I'm like this. I'm going to the movies later with my sister to see snow white and the huntsman. The boy is going out tonight. He knows how bad I am and it's killing me that I can't b perfect and happy and just ok for him