Wednesday, February 22, 2012


Was forced to go to the doctors today have an ear infection in both ears a sinus infection and damaged vocal chords I'm a mess right now

The doctor said I'm too young and too healthy to be as sick as I am he said dk what to do with me but got 2 weeks of antibiotics and 3 refills on my nasal spray once I get insurance have to get a cat scan done

Tuesday, February 14, 2012


So I'm sick again I've been in bed for 2 days i even called out of work yesterday and I rarely if ever do that I feel like a failure if I do that I should always work no matter what u know but I'm not calling off anymore idc how sick I am or what's going on I'm still going in

I have a fever shakes chills cough nasouses headache body aches dizzy head congestion im just a mess it's prob the flu oh well

Thursday, February 9, 2012

new layout

k its all done what do u gusy think u like or dont like
i made he banner at the top of my page
and i updated the book and this is me section still have to do pics but my head is pounding so i need to lay down for a lil

layout/blog name change

hey guys just wanted to let u know im going to be working on my blog today making a new banner with a different anme and a new layout so i hope u guys dont get confused

Orientation outfit

So I got a second part time job and I have my orientation today and then I start tomorrow so I wanted to show u guys my outfit in babysitting after that then I will try to make new banner for my blog with my new name and everything

Monday, February 6, 2012

Blog name change questions

Question for my faithful and lovely followers what would u guys think if I changed the name if blog. I dont know how many years I've been blogging what 2-3 years now and since I am trying to get better and I will document it and things going on in my life I was thinking if changing the name of my blog yes bones are pure when I was so deep in my Ed which really I guess I still am but I have to start fighting it since my body prob isn't gonna hang on much longer

I love this song lyric from ruse against " it's always darkest just before the dawn " so u was thinking of changing the name of my blog to darkestbeforedawn. Yes I know I have an Ed support site by that name but I think it would b a good blog name with the tag line as " my journey thru the ups and downs". What do u guys think I don't want to do it if it's going to be to confusing for everyone so please let me know

Sunday, February 5, 2012


Sorry that I haven't blogged in awhile things have just been crazy

I'm trying to get better so I won't b talking much about weightless and stuff I will still talk bout it and everything u know what I mean. Right now I haven't been doing to well I'm not actively trying to lose weight but I'm 95 lbs and I feel like my health is just getting worse like idk how much longer my body is going to b able to hold on

My stomach is getting worse and so is my throat I have no insurance right now so can't go get it checked out but I'm still taking antidepressants everyday and 4 ibuprofen a day I know shouldn't b taking that much

I still freak out a lot bout food I'm not counting cals but I still look at them if the number scares me I don't eat it I haven't been to the gym in awhile between being sick having no extra money for gas and now sick again it's hard but I try to do crunches everyday or every other u know

My life is kinda a mess right now a lot of personal shit that I don't want on here but I'm doing the best I can yes I'm stressed yes I feel like crying bout every other day and yes my panic attacks are back but considering what I've been dealing with I think that I'm doing a pretty good job

Have to go to work so I wil update later tell u more

Hope every one is doing ok sorry if I worried anyone for all my girls on dbd sd and df I'm still alive I just haven't gotten on hard to deal with everything u know