Sunday, January 27, 2013

Wednesday, January 23, 2013


So found out today that if I don't gain weight at least 2-3 lbs in the next week I will have to go inpatient

Idk what to think anymore like what do I do like what happens to my jobs and bills does anyone know if I can freeze my bills til I get out or am I completely screwed

Sunday, January 20, 2013


Y can't we be the weight we want to be at without society getting on our cases it's not fair that we are judged at all

I want to be 88 lbs and I will get there one day and I won't be judged for it

Saturday, January 19, 2013


Movie and workout time watching jumper and walking in place I got fat

Thursday, January 17, 2013

99 lbs

Therapist is gonna kill me but weight in at 99 lbs naked this morning I don't see her til the 23 I wanna lose more

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Stuck in bed

I'm stuck in bed all day have the flu and and ear infection upper respiratory infection I'm a damn mess watching the oc I think all day I don't have the energy to read and I love to read

Tuesday, January 15, 2013


I got the flu it's kicking my ass so bad Incan barely move all I ate today was banana and soup I'm not hungry at all I forced that down as it is

Monday, January 14, 2013


I'm so sick I feel like I got run over by a truck I'm nasouses sick to my stomach dizzy light headed legs ache I'm freezing and so fatigued

There up twice yesterday worked a Double and I'm workin all week too shot me now please

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Movie time

Took my test on label preparations got an 80 yay took 2 Vicodin now time for a movie

Friday, January 11, 2013

How I make it thru the day

This is how I make it thru the day

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Katie Elizabeth

Thanx got being there for me Hun we should get to know each other more do u have kik we can talk on there but thank u again ooo and anyone wanna talk my kik name is endlessvoices


In the past 24 hours I have taken 6 Xanax 6 Vicodin and 4 diuretics


Turns out I'm not pregnant it's my Ed just fucking everything up as usual can I cry now please

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

I want a cast

For some reason my wrapped up weird mind wants a cast


I'm exhausted today drinking a cup I coffee even though I'm not suppose to have caffeine

I had horrible chest pains yesterday I'm doing better today just a slight ache I had to work all day yesterday 9am-1130pm I have 2 jobs so I'm always in the run I can't wait til I have a whole day to myself I have to study I went back to school for pharmacy tech it's hard and alot of work but I'm doing it I have a 77 average right now I'm determined tonget that up

Right now I'm sitting here drinking a cup of coffee watching tv and babysitting then I have work later from 3-1130

So far today I've eaten 3 pancakes 1 medium cookie and 3 mini cookies I'm trying to get my calories up

My period hasn't came this month I'm bout a week late

Monday, January 7, 2013

Heading toward exhaustion

I think I'm heading toward exhaustion I'm barely able to stand I'm addicted to caffeine pills coffee and Vicodin I'm such a mess I jus want it all to end to be healthy happy u know but I'm so beat someone please help me

Sunday, January 6, 2013

update my blog

ima update it keepup with itmore have u guys missed me

Friday, January 4, 2013


So the boyfriend won't let me go vegan he says I need meat I don't like meat I only eat chicken when I have to I'd rather not eat meat if it was up to me I would never eat it

So ima go as vegan as I can only have meat with him and hopefully it won't be an every week thing I wanna get healthy be happy and toned u know

I'm not allowed to workout right now no gym no exercise til I reach 110 lbs at least I weigh in at 106 on clothes after breakfast I only get weighed at my therapy sessions I'm assuming I'm really like 100-101 lbs naked and empty I don't want to gain anymore weight I'm content where I am well I could lose a few lbs and be even happier

I've been manic ice been up for 23 hours so far and counting and I have to work 9am-1130 pm today. Ugh

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Going vegan

So I decided that I'm going to try and go vegan very slowly cut out things slowly and see how it goes I want to be happy and healthy start 2013 off right u know