Sick

Was forced to go to the doctors today have an ear infection in both ears a sinus infection and damaged vocal chords I'm a mess right now

The doctor said I'm too young and too healthy to be as sick as I am he said dk what to do with me but got 2 weeks of antibiotics and 3 refills on my nasal spray once I get insurance have to get a cat scan done

2/14/12

So I'm sick again I've been in bed for 2 days i even called out of work yesterday and I rarely if ever do that I feel like a failure if I do that I should always work no matter what u know but I'm not calling off anymore idc how sick I am or what's going on I'm still going in

I have a fever shakes chills cough nasouses headache body aches dizzy head congestion im just a mess it's prob the flu oh well

new layout

k its all done what do u gusy think u like or dont like
i made he banner at the top of my page
and i updated the book and this is me section still have to do pics but my head is pounding so i need to lay down for a lil

layout/blog name change

hey guys just wanted to let u know im going to be working on my blog today making a new banner with a different anme and a new layout so i hope u guys dont get confused

Orientation outfit

So I got a second part time job and I have my orientation today and then I start tomorrow so I wanted to show u guys my outfit in babysitting after that then I will try to make new banner for my blog with my new name and everything

Blog name change questions

Question for my faithful and lovely followers what would u guys think if I changed the name if blog. I dont know how many years I've been blogging what 2-3 years now and since I am trying to get better and I will document it and things going on in my life I was thinking if changing the name of my blog yes bones are pure when I was so deep in my Ed which really I guess I still am but I have to start fighting it since my body prob isn't gonna hang on much longer

I love this song lyric from ruse against " it's always darkest just before the dawn " so u was thinking of changing the name of my blog to darkestbeforedawn. Yes I know I have an Ed support site by that name but I think it would b a good blog name with the tag line as " my journey thru the ups and downs". What do u guys think I don't want to do it if it's going to be to confusing for everyone so please let me know

2/5/11

Sorry that I haven't blogged in awhile things have just been crazy

I'm trying to get better so I won't b talking much about weightless and stuff I will still talk bout it and everything u know what I mean. Right now I haven't been doing to well I'm not actively trying to lose weight but I'm 95 lbs and I feel like my health is just getting worse like idk how much longer my body is going to b able to hold on

My stomach is getting worse and so is my throat I have no insurance right now so can't go get it checked out but I'm still taking antidepressants everyday and 4 ibuprofen a day I know shouldn't b taking that much

I still freak out a lot bout food I'm not counting cals but I still look at them if the number scares me I don't eat it I haven't been to the gym in awhile between being sick having no extra money for gas and now sick again it's hard but I try to do crunches everyday or every other u know

My life is kinda a mess right now a lot of personal shit that I don't want on here but I'm doing the best I can yes I'm stressed yes I feel like crying bout every other day and yes my panic attacks are back but considering what I've been dealing with I think that I'm doing a pretty good job

Have to go to work so I wil update later tell u more

Hope every one is doing ok sorry if I worried anyone for all my girls on dbd sd and df I'm still alive I just haven't gotten on hard to deal with everything u know