2/5/11

Sorry that I haven't blogged in awhile things have just been crazy

I'm trying to get better so I won't b talking much about weightless and stuff I will still talk bout it and everything u know what I mean. Right now I haven't been doing to well I'm not actively trying to lose weight but I'm 95 lbs and I feel like my health is just getting worse like idk how much longer my body is going to b able to hold on

My stomach is getting worse and so is my throat I have no insurance right now so can't go get it checked out but I'm still taking antidepressants everyday and 4 ibuprofen a day I know shouldn't b taking that much

I still freak out a lot bout food I'm not counting cals but I still look at them if the number scares me I don't eat it I haven't been to the gym in awhile between being sick having no extra money for gas and now sick again it's hard but I try to do crunches everyday or every other u know

My life is kinda a mess right now a lot of personal shit that I don't want on here but I'm doing the best I can yes I'm stressed yes I feel like crying bout every other day and yes my panic attacks are back but considering what I've been dealing with I think that I'm doing a pretty good job

Have to go to work so I wil update later tell u more

Hope every one is doing ok sorry if I worried anyone for all my girls on dbd sd and df I'm still alive I just haven't gotten on hard to deal with everything u know