Broke my hand

Have a small break in my hand I'm in this for awhile

Punched a wall

I've gained weight

I'm getting a stomach

Update

Here's an update on me I've been doing ok I guess recovery is very hard but I keep trying therapist weighs me every week I've been 105.2 for the past 2 weeks that's after breakfast the session and in clothes so idk what my real weight is

Saw my psychiatrist lil while ago I don't like her she made it seem like I'm do for a suicide attempt because I have never had one. She didnt believe me when I said I've never had one its like really already

My therapist wants me at 115 lbs an that number just scares me so much she feels like I'm doing to much at once cause during my one maniacs moment I applied for school so I'm going for pharmacy tech

Outfits

Think my foot is broken

Fuck

I can't do anything right everything I seem to do is wrong I'm sorry that I'm not perfect the perfect person worker girlfriends I tried so hard to b perfect and I just can't. I'm sorry I'm Klumzy sorry that im always hurt sorry that I'm bipolar sorry that I'm anorexic just sorry. I give the fuck up

Pictures

Outfit updates

Doc tryin to scare me

They are saying that I could die if I don't stop this soon that my kidneys will fail of I don't stop the diuretics if I ever need a transplant I won't get it cause of my anorexia diagnosis

Getting help

I start outpatient partial hospitalization today here's the paper of what I do everyday

Is this infected?

It's burns from boiling water

The countdown starts over

I purged yesterday so today is a new start having some hot chocoloate and lil Ice cream later a muffin and mayb some tomatoes then I have dinner with the boy later

Day and half with out purging

Yay I'm doing good so far

Been purging

I hate it so much been doin it 2-3 times a day and I'm not even binging my weight is 99-100lbs an I hate that too I'm starting to restrict again I can't help it therapy start the 23 I need to be smaller

And my Xanax I'm only suppose to take it when I need it but be been taking it once a day I can't go without it

I feel like I'm spiraling

I feel like I'm spiralling out of control lately. My therapy starts August 23 and I'm freaking out. I purged twice yesterday I'm 99.8 lbs right now And I want to b between 90-95 lbs before then

Doc actually referred to me as anorexic today

And I'm being put in Xanax

Therapy

My therapy starts August 23
Any advice on what to expect

Was in the er

I'm ok he sent me home he's baffled doesn't know exactly what is was saying low potassium and anxiety Attack I went in with shakes shortness of breathe and chest aches

Emailed insurance company

I emailed my insurance company today to see of they cover behavorial health now it's just a waiting game

Captain Luna willow

Hey Hun yeah sorry I can't b on those sites right now I hope no one is worried in trying to recover I'm up to 99 lbs it's so hard I haven't hide my scars in awhile and noone says anything either do yeah

How are u doing?

Pic update

Outfits

I don't hide my scars anymore

I'm bipolar

Yup that's me I'm bipolar I'm now on antidepressants as well as antipsychotic I'm going to try and find an eatin disorder specialists that takes my insurance and then a physiatrist as well and hopefully a cheaper version of my abilify it's so expensive

I took the first step

Made my doctors a lot today I go next wednesday at 230pm I'm scared when I made it I said it was a follow up for my Meds which are for my anxiety and depression I have a week to convince myself to talk to him bout my Ed

So confused

I'm so confused im so torn the voices
My head idk what to do

Outfit for the day

Give up

I just give up I want help I need help but I can't get help cause I live in America and health insurance for the most point doesnt cover eatin disorders and look I'm not that small anyway.

Pictures

96 lbs

Im fat guys Ew

6/17/12

i took 4 aspirin 4 diuretics and a green tea pill last night all at once I'm nasouses and weak and I feel like shit but I need to hang on somehow and that's how I'm doing it

Pictures

Just some random ones that I took while I have been away