I hate it so much been doin it 2-3 times a day and I'm not even binging my weight is 99-100lbs an I hate that too I'm starting to restrict again I can't help it therapy start the 23 I need to be smaller
And my Xanax I'm only suppose to take it when I need it but be been taking it once a day I can't go without it
oh hon I am sorry. If it makes you feel any better I have quite a few friends that have to take their Xanax on a daily basis. I am hoping that when you actually start your therapy, which just realize it is not far away, things will get easier for you.
ReplyDeleteI hope that in the next few weeks you can start looking forward to starting therapy, rather than dreading it. You don't need to be "sicker" or "smaller" or "skinnier," Dani, you are already in a place where you truly need help. I hope that the Xanax helps calm you a bit so you won't purge anymore, I know with your past health problems (with your heart), purging has to be one of the worst things you could be doing.
ReplyDeleteHang in there, you're getting help so soon, and someday you'll be free of all of this.
Just try to hang on until therapy. It's only a couple weeks. And you really don't need to be smaller, love. You're really really small already. I agree with Desesperee, purging is one of the worst things for your heart right now. I really hope the Xanax helps, Dani. Try to relax a bit. You're doing something amazing by getting help, and I'd hate it if you didn't make it to the 23rd because of a heart attack or something.
ReplyDeleteThis will all be done soon! You'll be in therapy, and getting the help you need.
All my love <3
XOXO