why does life always gave to throw me a fucking curveball why cant i just be happy or wait not even happy just content for once in my fucking life. nope nope i cant you know why its cause life fucking hates me. i struggle everyday just to make it through the day between the pain the anxiety then add in i mak ejust enough to pay my credit card bills(only alil above minium payment) my car and car insurance put gas in my car and thenmayb i can get some food. but with all my stomach issues i have to buy soy based food no milk and gluten free stuff no wheat and fruit i love fruit and that is just expensive
i've been doing aight lately i had the money from my car when i traded it in so i used it to get flyers tickets for me and the boy ont he 20th, go to they eye docs to get contacts and glasses, get the nexium i needed(but am not on nemore) extra fruit and a bunch of built in bra camis(cause i cant wear bras nemore they hurt to much).
and yesterday i got a voicemail while i waas working it was to set up an interview for a job so i called them back i go tuesday the 11th at 11am i have a doc appt at 9am that day so ima go straight there i was doing ok then i gethome to find a fucking bill for my EGD test i had done iinsurance didnt cover all of it so i am no responiable for the rest of it which is nearly $600 i dont have that laying around i just dont so i will have to call them during my lunch hour today to see if i can defer payment see when its all do and see if they will just accept like $30 a month with my luck they wont and it doesnt help that my computer died and i was going to figure out how to get a new one but know thats going to have to be on the back burner to the fucking medical bill god please can i not get one for the disida scan with cck i had too cuase that will just push me over the edge
o and im sorry everyone espeically to beth i didnt mean to blow up on you my head is never ever in the right place and i didnt realize that my writing offended so many people i just write what im feeling at the moment and yes it is more then like jumbled and the spelling is off i didnt realize so many people didnt like that. i have never been good with grammer it just was never my thing but as you can tell i tried harder to write better for you guys it took me alot longer and now im running a little late but if it makes it easier for you guys then i will try