96 lbs naked 98 lbs in clohtes at doc appt(yoga pants, cami, thin but baggy zip up hoodie, moccasins)
doc said i dont have much more to lose to not lose nemore to try and sleep on a schedule u know he upped my dosage of anitdepressants 40 mg now instead of 20mg he said if they arent working yet in a month hes gonna take them of them completely and started treating my fibromylagia instead
idk what to think i just wish some1 would help me to notice that im not ok idk what else i have to do i told him im barely sleeing im tired i hurt so bad im not hungry i dont eat much and everytime i eat it still hurts so bad all he did was jsut up my antidepressants. he doesnt wanan give me any sleeping pills yet cuase there arent many generic versions of that out yet and i need generic cause of my fucked up insurance
i just ugh im so confused idk what to think i cant stand being in my head nemore i wnat all the thoughts to b gone ijust wanna b alone in my head i want to b content i want to b able to eat and not freak out about every lil bite i take i just want to b normal thats all i want is that to much to ask for
well app it is cuase i cant handle like my head is a jumbled mess i freak that fuck out bout water i have to do curnches i have to keep moving i have to go to the gym i have to take antacaids i have to lay there and feel my bones i have to eat less and less and less ijust have to ugh i cant deal with this i told the boy i wouldnt go to the gym nemore this week i went sat sun and mon so no more these week and thats freaking me otu i need the gym i need to burn off what im eating and then more im just not handling nething right now
can some1 help me pelase i cant go on like this nemore i want some1 to help me i want the doc to notice i reached the point u know the point where u know that u just cant do it nemore that u dont know how much more ur body can take ur mind ur everything idk how to beat this disease.