12/24/11

Hello downward spiral nice to meet u again I really didn't want to meet u again but here we are back in the downward spiral of my eating disorder I know everyone was say I was doing so well with recovery well guess what life changes and mine is fucking falling the fuck apart to many bills no money can't make the boy happy everything is just out of control and I just need to control something and I'm going to spiral nicely considering that I almost bent over the toilet at the restaurant and threw up my meal kept it in only cause I was with the boy but fuck it all anymore never good enough he's gonna leave me probably anyone so what's the point of anything neway meet u at rock bottom everyone