Sunday, June 19, 2011

outfit/ED survey

so i dont have a date nite outfit for u cause we didn thave a date nite this week. i do have the outfit that i wore to work yesterday though and i actually liked it thought it was cute so i will show u that. but we didnt hav ea date nite this week because he went out with hes friends friday nite came over about 2:30am stayed til 5 and we were suppose to spend saturday together then after i got out of work but i cheked my phone had a txt form him saying hes been sick all day cuas he drank to much the nite b4 so he cant hang out tonite. i wish he wouldnt dirnk so much i dont care that he goes out with hes friends i just wish that he didnt dirnk so much that he gets sick all the time i love himi miss him i wanna c him its ok though he can drink if he wants im not that girlfriend who is gonna tell him what to do so neway heres the outfit i wore to work




so update on my pain i kinda figured the pain was do to my stomach and my gallbladdder even though doc said came back normal but yeah all the research points to that so ive been eating alot of tums and what do u know its helping well its helping with the chest pain at least it only dulls the back pain but he i can deal with that trust me i ca

ok ED survery time now


Size: shirts - extra small or small, pants - 0
Age: 25
Highest Weight: 115 lbs
Lowest Weight: 80 somthing lbs 6 years ago 94lbs nearly 3 yrs ago
Goal Weight: 85-95 lbs

Favorite Diet Food?
water, coup fruit

Favorite Binge Food?
ice cream, cheese, bread

Favorite Exercise?
running, crunches, walking, ellipitcal

Thinspo?
real girl mostly

What Makes You Slip Up?
usually when im stressed or aggravated

What Makes You Strong?
knowing that i sruvived this long that i made my body listen and didnt give in

When Did It Start?
ha theres no start date ive been this way for as long as i can remember i swear i was born this way

Does Anyone Know?
boyfriend, one friend, my blogger friends, friends on DP and SD then a few ana txting buddies

Do You Want Help?
it depends ont he day sometimes i want help other days its all like whats the point im not gonna b able to change neway

How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day?
its different everday but it can range from 0-1200 depending

What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror?
i hate mirrors most of the time i see this huge fat person but every once in awhiel i c this tiny fragile gilr but i know that girl isnt the truth im fat

Are You In A Relationship?
yes going on 8 years with the boy

Is It For Attention?
fuck no its who i am i dont do nehting for attetnion

Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends?
i dot have ne real life friends

Are You Depressed?
never been diangosed but i hav emy lows and highs and then really lows

Ever Tried To Commit Suicide?
no but i have tthought about it

Ever Been To A Psychologist?
no i tired to contact one twice for help though i chickend out

Are You On Any Medication?
yes butnot for my ed

I AM -
[x] anorexic
[x] ednos
[ ] bulimic
[x] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[x] drinking something
[ ] eating something
[ ] under 100lbs
[x] starving myself
[ ] participating in a fast
[ ] vegan

PEOPLE -
[x] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[] say I’m ugly
[] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[x] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic
[x] have tried to stop me

I WISH -
[x] I was thin
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn't have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was prettier
[x] I could stop being ana/mia
[] I had a boy/girlfriend
[x] I could disappear

I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference
[x] shaking
[x] being weak (but strong at the same time)
[x] losing weight
[ ] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[x] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

I HATE -
[x] when people stare
[x] being asked questions
[x] having to eat [in front of other people]
[] being single
[] wearing short skirts
[x] being fat
[x] looking ugly
[x] feeling this way
[x] fat people

I NEED -
[x] more support
[x] people to stay out of my business
[x] more friends
[x] someone to know
[x] less food
[x] more water
[] a gym membership
[] to lose 50 lbs
[] to lose 30 lbs
[x] to lose 10lbs

8 comments:

  1. Your legs look great in that outfit! Sorry you didn't get date night, though :/

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  2. I agree your legs look really good! Your blouse is really pretty.

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  3. I love that top!

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  4. OMG the skirt with those shoes..... toooooo cute

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  5. You have such teeny little legs! I'm jealous of your thighs. :/

    I didn't know Fat Bastard was still lurking around ed blogs. He's been at it so long, you'd think he'd realize by now that it's not a simple matter of "just eat something."

    luv u, miss Dani!
    xoxoxo

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