7/3/10

Well everyone I am back so this will prob b a long update have to fill u all in on everything that has happened the past few days with my trip and everything

Wednesday nite

So the boy came over wed nite after the bar. Him and hes friend deicded to go out for a lil so he came over at like midnite and the first thing he said when he saw me was ur not ok. Which is true iw asnt ok at all I was having the worst side pains and somtach pains ive been getting them a lot lately and idk what they are from im sure they are prob ed related or soemthing since I have put my body thru hell with this shit ugh. But neway the pain in on my right side under my ribs and yes it does hur the hole side I like double over in pain when it happens. So we were laying there he was holding me and trying to make me better the pain was so bad I coudlnt lay still I had to keep moving I always lay on my right side and I just coudlnt cause it hurt so bad. But neway we were laying there he goes u know there is something wrong with u ur not ok im like yeahi know that. And that was the end of it because he knows better then to push the docs with me casue he knows I wont go


Thrusday

This was the day that we left yay hahah. Well I got up at 6am for I could finish packing and shoer and straighten my ahir and everything. I wanted to give myself time casue I hate being rushed it makes me panic and we don’t nee me panicing at all casue then im just a mess all day. As soon as I woke up I was nasous that’s been happening a lot again recently too. Ia lready palnned on not eating nething till I had to and I wasn’t going to take my vitamins or my pills cause I cant take them on an empty stomach soi skipped them in the morning. We ended up leaving at 930am we stopped at a lil convient store b4 we got on the road to get food and drinks I got a vitamin water 0 and a special k bar to make him happy I didn’t eat the bar though. I t was al il over a 3 hour drive to get to baltimore form were I live I coudlnt sit still the hole time so I was fidgeting a lot its just want I do cause I can never sit still ihave to always keep moving in some way or anther. We got there around 1 and we went to go check in our orignally check in time for the hotel was 3 but sometiems they let u check in early u know yeah well they didn’t they said check again at 2 might have something open. So we went out and walked to the aquarium for we could get our tickets early and not have to worry about it. The hotel is about ½ mil away from the aquarium according to mapquest it didn’t seem like that long of a walk but it was still a nice walk. We got ther got our tickets and walked back to the hotel yeah so they woudlnt let us check in yet so we ended up sitting in the lobby for almost an hour waiting for our room ugh stupid hotel ppl but we finally did get to check in at 3pm yay for that  the rooms were amazing u walked in and on the left was alil kitched with a fridge toaster microwave even left us microwavalbe popcorn and tea and coffee. Then u walk in and there is a chair table and a couch and a flat screen tv the swivals around to either fact the living room or the bed omg the bed king size nice and comfy iloved it then are lile bathorom sher and toilet the sink and mirror were outsie on the bathroom in its own lil room it was still nice though. So we pretty much just dropped our stuff off and meet our friends and headed out for the aquarium again . the aquarium was amazing it took us aobut an hour and half to walk thru it all I took lots of pics which I still have to upload from my camera an dmake cd’s out of them for our friends and myself. I don’t wanna get into to much detail about it cause I could go on for ever about it but if u ever get a chance to go the the baltimore aquarium def go. We went to the gift shop I got my lil cousins each a stuffed animal the 4 yr old I got her a stuffed pink and glittery turtle and the 8 month old god him a hammered head shark stuffed. I got my sis a baltimore keychain with her name an dit blinks I got myself one as well its cool I got one form the philly zoo as well when we went last year. The all decied that they were hungry then so went to the hard rock café. We wanted to eat at the espn zone but fuck it was closed it was discontiuned in a few areas it sucks casue they have good food and evena gam room upstairs so we were upset about that. The hard rock café is every expensive it scrazy and the food wasn’t that good for it to b that expensive. At that point we decided to split up for a lil me and the boy going one way and our 2 friends going the other. We walked the harbor for awhile by the water it was nice even stopped at the lil malls that they have there the malls don’t have much but we walked thru them neway then evenutally walked back to the hotel to relax for alil b4 we went out that nite. Theya ll deided they wanted to go out I didn’t wanna go but I went out with them neway. Well by the time we rested for awhile and got showered and dressed it was 930. We walked aorund again trying to find a good place. My side was really bother me again and every step I took hurt so I had to walk slower the boy stayed back with me he kept asking if I was ok I would tell him yes no matter no much it hurt. They found this gated off place with a bunch of bars in it so they decided to go there the go didn’t believe that it was me on my id cause I have black hair now and on my drivers license its blonde but eventaully he belived me. I didn’t wanna drink but I had one vodka and pinapple nemore just to make the boy happy. We ere there til 2 am. I was so ovewhelmed and so panicky it was crazy I cant deal with a lot of ppl or a lot oa ppl id ont know I ended up standing there a lot bouncing up and down ont the balls on my feet with my arms wrapped around me and chewing on my nails I was so uncomformtalbe. At one point the boy wene tup to the bare to get another drink and I was standing with the girl that came with us she was talking to all this guys cause that’s how she is reallyt alkative and this one guy walked up to me said hi asked bout my glasses for some reason and I go y are u asking me this and he goes just starting convertaion im like no hes no and im like yeah no he was really creepy and he freaked me out after that I wasn even more uncomfrotalbe then b4 the boy finally came back and I told him what happened and pointed the guy out hes like ignore him hes nothing but the boy stayed close to me 4 the rest of the nite kept asking if I was ok and giving me hugs he knows I don’t do well with crowds. Well finally our friend were ready to go they were drinking and wanted food so we stopped at the 7-11 right there I got apint of ben and jerrys cookie dough ice cream I was craving it all day the boy got 2 bags of chips and our friends got other stuff. We were stanidng outside waitng for the friends to come out the boy asked if I was ok I walk up give him a hug and im like I was just so overwhelmed I don’t do well with crosed and ppl they freak me out he goes I know u did good though. We got back to the hotel he had chips and I had al il of my ice cream and I go I cant eat much of this or I will hate myself and he goes I though u liked ice cream and im like yeah I do but if I eat to much ima hate myself he just said eat alil and put the rst away. So that was the end of our crazy eventful thrusday. Heres the food log for that day

Breakfast
*water
Lunch
*vitamin water 0
Dinner
*half honey citrus grilled chicken salad no onions dressing on the side(from hard rock)
*few fries
*water
Late nite snack
*ice cream


Friday
We got up around 9am to shower and everything b4 we watned to check out at 10. Of oucrse I woke up a few times during the nite cause god forbid I sleep thru the nite. Well the boy deicded toshower first so I sat on the bed and watched charmed and drank my cup of tea that I made for myself hes friends ended up showing up early and the boy still wasn’t ready so ihad to thru on clothes real qucik to get the door after I yelled at them ha well not yelled just said ur early and tht I have to shower yet they deiced to go down the the lobby and wait for us. Well I finally showered and we left the room at 10am I had my bag and my purse stole the popcorn form the room and a spoon casue I had to finish my ice cream yes the boy had me have ice cream for breakfast well we finallycheck out and we got on the road I ate the rest of the ice cream and around 11 we stopped at a rest stop for lunch. They ahd a starbucks I was happy I could get some tea yay for that. We always stopped at the lil sotre there for I could get a pack of gum,. We decided to try and play the claw machine casue we are dorks like that and we love the game the fucking claw sucked though ugh. The boy acutally had the stuffed mandm in the cle and it was going up but it hit the top so hard that the fucking claw dropeed the damn thing ugh. So the girl spet pretty much the hole way home cause he was hungouver I sat in the middle aise she was in the back seats so I was there talking with the boys the hole way home I kept moving though cuase damn sits are uncofortable and ugh hate long car rides. Finally got back home at 2pm very tiring we all deiced to go home shower and rest for awhile b4 meeting up for dinner and the movies. I showered and read for awhile also watched tv for awhile I should of napped cause I was dead on my feet but I didn’t. we all meet up at applebees and I wasn’t aloowed to get a salad because the boy said that’s all I ate for 2 days that I gotta get something else nething else, ijsut looked upt he cals on my meal 1200 cals fuck that’s alor I only ate about half soi guess it wasn’t to bad at all idk ugh I hate restraurants eveything is so high in cals that its fucking crazy as shit. We went to the movies after to c Knight and Day. I told the boy I was craving skittles and he said that I should sotp eating so much sugar asue my face is breaking out soi hsoudl watch my sugar intake and I wasn’t allowed to get skittles. U think he would u know whatn me to eat since he knows bout my ed and everything but nope im not allpwed to eat certain things. Hes making my ed worse and he doesn’t heven realize it ugh so neway he ended up getting us some popcorn instead. The movie was ok I guess idk I was relaly tired and I did end up falling asleep for a lil during the movie it was ok though it wasn tht e worse thing I have seen not even by far. Food log for Friday

Breakfast
*rest of the ice cream
*lil water
Lunch
*half chicken ceaser salad no cheese dressing on the side
*grande unsweetened black tea from starbuks
On the drive home
*15 pretzel m&m’s
*bottle of water
Dinner
*water
*half a fiesta lime chicken meal(applebees)
*3 onion rings(applebees
Movies
*some popcorn
*lil hi c fruit punch


Saturday
Im still so tired today its ridc my eyes acutally hurt but theres nuttin I can relaly do about that cause I have slept a lil last nite but the past 2 days have have been really crazy and I was walking and on my feet a lot. Ihad to go to work today which wasn’t fun at all ihad to do payroom which took me forever because I was tired and I could barely count but I eventaully got it done. The boss is still barely talking to me cause I took off 2 days and he acutally had to run hes own business for once in hes life ugh. After work stopped at walmart and got some more acai berry cleanse pills, black nailpolish, the dvd thingsy to put the pics on, and 2 tihngs of face wash. Im just relaxong now but im go c eclipse again tonite at 8pm my sis might come with me or not idc I asked her if she wanted to go and if she deosnt that is fine cause I don’t mind going to c it by myself. The boy is ogn gout tonite so its just me I don’t mind staying home cause o all the ppl at bats yeah no thanx ha it gives to time to relax and read and workout sometimes I watch a movie u know. I was planning on washing my car tomm but its suppose to b in the 90’s agan tomm so yeah that wouldn’t b a good idea I don’t need heat exhasution again so I guess iw ill just sleep in as long as I can sicne work is clsoed for the 4th and mayb I will do some crunches run in place a il idk we will c how the day goes. The will prob spend Sunday nite with the boy cause lukcy him has off on Monday. He goes back to work on Tuesday so now I will have to get use to not seeing him everyday and not sleeping next to him every nite. We will still spend Friday nites together but its still not the same. I just gotta make it 3 weeks cause then he is on vacation again and I can sleep next to him every nite again yay for that. We arent going away though we might do a day trip to an amusemtn park though.

Food log for today

Breakfast
*45 cals yogurt, granola, apple and ½ cup blueberries mixed together ina bowl
*cup of hot detox tea
Lunch(at work)
*vitamin water 0
*bottle of water
Dinner
*other half of food from applebees
*3 onion rings
*bottle of water