new plan

so i came up with a new plan if i will stick to it and for how long is idk up in the air u guys know me i am always all over the place bu ti need to break this purge cycle cause i look like shit i look in the mirror and just hate myself so no more purging i need to get back to my root smy go too my anorexia
now i gotta becareufl cause of my heart and shit so i cant outright starve no matter how much i want to but o well i will do what i can

so plan

breakfast
*non dairy fruit smoothie or just a fruit bowl

lunch
*soup and small salad

snack
*pretzels or animal crackers or jello idk but a small snack

dinner
*half a bag of veggies and either some carb or protein like baked potato, fries, veggie burger chicken, rice u guys know what i mean
*if i dont feel like having ne of that i will just have hole bag of veggies

snack b4 bed if needed
*apple

drinks
*water of course
*tea every morning
*i can have 1 cup of hot choc sometime during the day
but i always have to b dirnking something i i hate the water belly feeling but id i dont dirnk i will forget to drink so

exercise
*ima get back to doing crunches every nite again my stomach looks like shit and i need to change that
*gym- going to go as much as i can workout wise it depends on how my chest feels like i use to just do elly for an hour or 2 but i cant now it hurts my chest and heart and it feels like my stomach just keeps dropping. today i did 35 on elly 35 on bike and that worked well sorta i still felt like shit but i got workout in if i feel really bad i will just walk on treadmill

so yeah thats the plan i need tolose weight im fat and gross and just ew i cant b a fat ass mess nemore its time to get backon track stop the purging and get to double digits

lvoe u all